I thought I was confident enough. But when I was actually doing, my hands trembled. It wasn't obvious, but I could feel the tremor.
Few bad comments received, I chose to ignore. It's a learning process, there is a lot of space for me to improve. Try to overcome the fear and do like it's my millionth time doing. It's not something difficult to achieve. People can do, why can't I?
Need something to calm this trembling heart down. Things are going to get better.
Thursday, September 27, 2012
Wednesday, September 26, 2012
Two Chinese ladies
It's starting to get on my nerves when people keeps saying that I was the one among the 2 chinese ladies.
Okay, this is how it was started. Last time I was in Gynecology posting, there is one curricular requirement which we students need to accomplish where we were required to go to clinic and observe how a Dr manage a patient who came for a follow-up/illness.
During that time, there were 5-6 consultation rooms but almost all were already occupied with students except of this room of this particular Prof. My friend and I entered his room and he was examining a patient's external genitalia. He said "LOOK AT THIS PATIENT" to us. We only saw there was vulval swelling and the patient quickly dressed up. Then the Prof got a little agitated and said WHY ARE U ALL STANDING THERE?YOU SHOULD TAKE GLOVES AND EXAMINE WHAT'S WRONG WITH HER. I got astonished as what he said previously was just LOOK! Then he starts questioning the patient. We were like furnitures, as what a medical officer told me where Profs treat medical students like furniture, because that was what he experienced.
The Prof is very fast-acting. He only spent about 5 minutes for each patient. He even stopped the patient from talking more when the patient wanted to elaborate more of their illness. After about 6-7 patients, he finished his clinic work and left by asking us to look at patients' case notes. He neither teach us much nor talk to us.
Okay. End of clinic.
Back in Ward. My friend clerked a Chinese patient in ward and the patient said she has her follow-up under that particular Prof.( we all know the Prof). Then she said there were 2 chinese ladies when she had her follow-up with the Prof, those 2 chinese ladies were very badly scolded by the Prof. Then, it starts to spread the 2 chinese ladies were me and my another friend. There were few friends coming up to me and asked whether I was the one who got madly scolded by the Prof. Man, I got so dumbfounded. Come on, the Prof was in rush to finish his clinic work, where to find the time to scold us?! Frankly, I admit I didn't receive such scolding described by them. There are so many possiblities behind this! Either the patient created story or that wasn't actually 2 chinese ladies, perhaps some ladies who look like chinese? Could be possible okay.
I don't like to be assumed, especially I am certain I wasn't the one involved, so
SHUDDUP AND STOP ASSUMING,PEOPLE!
Okay, this is how it was started. Last time I was in Gynecology posting, there is one curricular requirement which we students need to accomplish where we were required to go to clinic and observe how a Dr manage a patient who came for a follow-up/illness.
During that time, there were 5-6 consultation rooms but almost all were already occupied with students except of this room of this particular Prof. My friend and I entered his room and he was examining a patient's external genitalia. He said "LOOK AT THIS PATIENT" to us. We only saw there was vulval swelling and the patient quickly dressed up. Then the Prof got a little agitated and said WHY ARE U ALL STANDING THERE?YOU SHOULD TAKE GLOVES AND EXAMINE WHAT'S WRONG WITH HER. I got astonished as what he said previously was just LOOK! Then he starts questioning the patient. We were like furnitures, as what a medical officer told me where Profs treat medical students like furniture, because that was what he experienced.
The Prof is very fast-acting. He only spent about 5 minutes for each patient. He even stopped the patient from talking more when the patient wanted to elaborate more of their illness. After about 6-7 patients, he finished his clinic work and left by asking us to look at patients' case notes. He neither teach us much nor talk to us.
Okay. End of clinic.
Back in Ward. My friend clerked a Chinese patient in ward and the patient said she has her follow-up under that particular Prof.( we all know the Prof). Then she said there were 2 chinese ladies when she had her follow-up with the Prof, those 2 chinese ladies were very badly scolded by the Prof. Then, it starts to spread the 2 chinese ladies were me and my another friend. There were few friends coming up to me and asked whether I was the one who got madly scolded by the Prof. Man, I got so dumbfounded. Come on, the Prof was in rush to finish his clinic work, where to find the time to scold us?! Frankly, I admit I didn't receive such scolding described by them. There are so many possiblities behind this! Either the patient created story or that wasn't actually 2 chinese ladies, perhaps some ladies who look like chinese? Could be possible okay.
I don't like to be assumed, especially I am certain I wasn't the one involved, so
SHUDDUP AND STOP ASSUMING,PEOPLE!
Sunday, September 23, 2012
When a Psychology student met a Law student
A guy asked a girl in a library; “Do you mind if I sit beside you”?
The girl answered with a loud voice; "I DON’T WANT TO SPEND THE NIGHT
WITH YOUUU!!!”.
All the students in the library started staring at the guy and he was embarrassed. After a couple of minutes, the
girl walked quietly to the guy’s table and she told him “I study psychology and I know what a man is thinking, I guess you felt embarrassed right?"
The guy responded with a
loud voice: "$200 JUST FOR ONE NIGHT!!!? THAT’S TOO MUCH!!!"
...and all the people in the
library looked at the girl in shock and the guy whispered in her ears; “I study Law and I know how to make someone feel guilty"
girl walked quietly to the guy’s table and she told him “I study psychology and I know what a man is thinking, I guess you felt embarrassed right?"
The guy responded with a
loud voice: "$200 JUST FOR ONE NIGHT!!!? THAT’S TOO MUCH!!!"
...and all the people in the
library looked at the girl in shock and the guy whispered in her ears; “I study Law and I know how to make someone feel guilty"
HAHAHAHHAHAH
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Laziness keeps haunting and refused to leave. So here am I blogging instead of reading something on Gynecology.
It has been a month since we started Forth Year, and this is the first Sunday I spent in college! Initially thought it would be a productive day with some heavy reading. Ended up spending the day sleeping, eating, doing proposal and surfing internet! Diligence that I promised to possess, where you uhh!
Spending a Sunday made me wandering a lot. How I wish I would own a car, so that I can drive to Food Foundry and get a slice of layer cake for my tea, so that I can drive to SS2 hawker stall to have a pleasant meal of Char Kuey Teow, so that I can drive to Mid Valley to buy my mother a yellow blouse. How I wish.
That's probably because I had spent multiple weekends hanging out, and found myself to be so helpless when I forced to stay in college. Prof said Medical Students MUST become a nerd, then only you can outshine the others. Sorry Prof *bowing*, I'm not committed enough to resort myself to be a nerd.
I felt guilty for not making 28th Mac 2012 an eventful day for him. I promise to make amends for overlooking his Big day by planning something big in this Nov!
: )
Mentally Challenged Principal!
Saturday should be the second best day in the entire week after Friday, shouldn't it? Well, had a replacement ward round at 5pm on saturday. Quite reluctant, but for the sake of learning, we stay for that. Merely a message from the lecturer who wanted it to be postponed to 8pm on the same day started to mar this beautiful Saturday..Again, got scolded by Prof for not being competent enough. And frankly I felt a tinge of guilt. Alright that was all fine, every word she said was rather true and I could accept all her scoldings. Well it could be better if we could impress her, but in contrast, we kept making her disappointed. Too scarce, too shallow and less commitment.
1-hour ward round was quite a pain. Together with my 3 other groupmates., we walked towards our hostel after ward round. One of my friends was wearing skirt, a knee-length skirt okay! It's not short right?! Okay, I shall narrate a lil bout my hostel's rules and regulations! This principal who made to her current position 2 years ago has made our life worse! Our hostel ( or better known as college ) was serene until her appearance!! She started to propose silly rules to tenants of this college. Only knee-length or longer skirts were allowed. There are more actually! And my friend got caught by her. How unlucky! She started to nag her. "Do you know the college rules?Do you know I could just take action on you by writing letter to your Dad and Dean?" And she threatened my friend that she wants her to move from a double room to a triple room! And that would be very small-spaced.
I mean, what's wrong with her mentality?!! That's how a professional attire look like, isn't it? She wants to tell us how powerful she is over this college, her dictatorship is beyond our tolerance limit. There were ceaseless complaint about her, but no action taken.
We assume, she is maybe suffering from perimenopausal symptoms like atrophic vaginitis which her husband starting to shoo/neglect her due to sexual dissatisfaction. And she started to treat tenants horribly bad due to her psychosocial issue. Well, that isn't true but I hope that's true hahahah!
I hope she will be demoted from principal. She made our life terrible. We live in state of vain, being all paranoid. Like "will we get caught if I wear short pants/skirts?" "will I be expelled from college if I don't attend the college activities?" I prefer staying in this college because it's situated near to hospital and very convenient for medical students. But the stupidity of the rules are simply ridiculous!
1-hour ward round was quite a pain. Together with my 3 other groupmates., we walked towards our hostel after ward round. One of my friends was wearing skirt, a knee-length skirt okay! It's not short right?! Okay, I shall narrate a lil bout my hostel's rules and regulations! This principal who made to her current position 2 years ago has made our life worse! Our hostel ( or better known as college ) was serene until her appearance!! She started to propose silly rules to tenants of this college. Only knee-length or longer skirts were allowed. There are more actually! And my friend got caught by her. How unlucky! She started to nag her. "Do you know the college rules?Do you know I could just take action on you by writing letter to your Dad and Dean?" And she threatened my friend that she wants her to move from a double room to a triple room! And that would be very small-spaced.
I mean, what's wrong with her mentality?!! That's how a professional attire look like, isn't it? She wants to tell us how powerful she is over this college, her dictatorship is beyond our tolerance limit. There were ceaseless complaint about her, but no action taken.
We assume, she is maybe suffering from perimenopausal symptoms like atrophic vaginitis which her husband starting to shoo/neglect her due to sexual dissatisfaction. And she started to treat tenants horribly bad due to her psychosocial issue. Well, that isn't true but I hope that's true hahahah!
I hope she will be demoted from principal. She made our life terrible. We live in state of vain, being all paranoid. Like "will we get caught if I wear short pants/skirts?" "will I be expelled from college if I don't attend the college activities?" I prefer staying in this college because it's situated near to hospital and very convenient for medical students. But the stupidity of the rules are simply ridiculous!
Friday, September 21, 2012
Clinic Humour
Listening to patient's stories is always the best part. A woman brought her mother for some Gynaecology illness in clinic, accompanied by her 20 year-old son. I supposed they are Punjabis. After examining the mother, her son starts stating his problem -- skin allergies due to uncertain allergens.
Mother: I've told you, you must be allergic to your girlfriend's car. It's so dirty!
Son kept silent
Doctor (said to the son): Maybe you are allergic to your girlfriend! (batu api mia doctor)
Mother: YA! WHY I NEVER THOUGHT OF THAT?! Maybe you're allergic to her, even I am also allergic to her.
Mother-son conflict. I was working hard to suppress the laughter kononnya want to portray the professionalism. hahah
OMG.Last weekend for the Gynae posting. It has been a month since we were first entering forth year. Going to upgrade to Final Year in April 2013! Oh man, time slows down please I beg. Having scarce knowledge is not going to do any good to me.
Mother: I've told you, you must be allergic to your girlfriend's car. It's so dirty!
Son kept silent
Doctor (said to the son): Maybe you are allergic to your girlfriend! (batu api mia doctor)
Mother: YA! WHY I NEVER THOUGHT OF THAT?! Maybe you're allergic to her, even I am also allergic to her.
Mother-son conflict. I was working hard to suppress the laughter kononnya want to portray the professionalism. hahah
OMG.Last weekend for the Gynae posting. It has been a month since we were first entering forth year. Going to upgrade to Final Year in April 2013! Oh man, time slows down please I beg. Having scarce knowledge is not going to do any good to me.
I live each day listening to life stories
Hola!
Exhaustive night. Back from Gynecology on-call, only ONE case for the entire night, well at least it's slightly better compared to previous on-call which I manage to see NONE. Not fated to be Gynecologist perhaps.
A&E is a city that never sleeps. Eh, like New York City. All zones look gloomy, because they are all enclosed! Daytime just looks exactly like night time, you won't see the sunlight, raindrops and optimistically, haze. Green zone looks the brightest, followed by Yellow zone while Red Zone looks the least bright. I believe if you do a thorough examination on the staffs, they might be lacking of some essential Vitamin D. This sort of gives me an idea what venture I'm going to take, and not to take, after graduating.
Saw few students from M university, they look like Medical Students to me, judging from the lab coat they were wearing, but friend told me they are Nursing students. Ahh Whatever. It was their disgust look they gave us and with the incomprehensible language, annoyed me much. You may say I'm arrogant/selfish whatever, I felt our territory was being invaded. uhm. Just some thought.
Ohya, I am immensely in love, with the current medical student life. 4th year, which notoriously known as Honeymoon Year. To be exact, it's only half a year. Back to University Malaya Medical Center (UMMC) after completing 3rd year in Klang is flattering you know! I don't hate Klang hospital, in fact I find it an excellent place to learn as a medical student. Patients were kind, and never get short on patients with incessant admissions. Most probably it's the enormous number of crows that irritated me ahahahah random reason. Alright, get serious. Perhaps being away from people you love to hang out with is an agony. Other reasons -- High level of stress since it was the first clinical year, hospital with stuffy atmosphere ( clerking history and doing physical examination were not fun at all when your hands are busy writing/examining the patient and had to make sure to wipe away the drops of sweat on your face before it runs down all the way from your forehead, to your cheek/nose and lastly to your patient's body!) Embarassing ok.
Love hanging out in UMMC ward because they are air-conditioned! Used to be told that UMMC patients may not be willing to be clerked by medical students and one may find learning process to be difficult if we keep having such not-so-willing-to-spend-time-for-medical-students patients. However what I have been experiencing so far is the exact opposite. Patients here are as kind as those in Klang. And the staff nurses here are 10000000x more polite and kind compared to those in Klang! Why so much difference someone tell me pls?! Klang hospital should be equipped with air-cond too may be haha.
Last day in Gynae Ward. Not joking gonna miss this ward because we are not coming back here again.Not until you're going for your housemanship. Listening to stories from patient, mostly are rather sad. Patients are the best tutors, this is true. They taught me a lot. And I sometimes ended my conversation with the patient by telling them I learnt a lot from them and it always plants a smile on their face. A contentment.
-Social-
I dislike people being emo, yes emo wth. It's not like I never show it, but come on, you don't get emo 2-3x each week do you?? Learnt from a friend telling how ridiculous someone could be. That someone got all stressed out because of people surrounding. people baca buku pun dia marah, people main pun dia marah. Bangs the things hard on table, whack the door etc etc. Ha ha, I find it rather funny how easy it is to alter your emotion. Why so fragile and why not learn to control your emotion?! That someone thinks people could tolerate her now, and in the future. Come on, you don't easily find people who could tolerate you elsewhere! Unless you're going to stay at the same place forever and not moving on with your life. Learn to grow up little girl. SICK
Ward round on Saturday (!) with Prof J. Hopefully we can stop giving her headache by offering best answers to all her questions. Lucks please thanks.
Exhaustive night. Back from Gynecology on-call, only ONE case for the entire night, well at least it's slightly better compared to previous on-call which I manage to see NONE. Not fated to be Gynecologist perhaps.
A&E is a city that never sleeps. Eh, like New York City. All zones look gloomy, because they are all enclosed! Daytime just looks exactly like night time, you won't see the sunlight, raindrops and optimistically, haze. Green zone looks the brightest, followed by Yellow zone while Red Zone looks the least bright. I believe if you do a thorough examination on the staffs, they might be lacking of some essential Vitamin D. This sort of gives me an idea what venture I'm going to take, and not to take, after graduating.
Saw few students from M university, they look like Medical Students to me, judging from the lab coat they were wearing, but friend told me they are Nursing students. Ahh Whatever. It was their disgust look they gave us and with the incomprehensible language, annoyed me much. You may say I'm arrogant/selfish whatever, I felt our territory was being invaded. uhm. Just some thought.
Ohya, I am immensely in love, with the current medical student life. 4th year, which notoriously known as Honeymoon Year. To be exact, it's only half a year. Back to University Malaya Medical Center (UMMC) after completing 3rd year in Klang is flattering you know! I don't hate Klang hospital, in fact I find it an excellent place to learn as a medical student. Patients were kind, and never get short on patients with incessant admissions. Most probably it's the enormous number of crows that irritated me ahahahah random reason. Alright, get serious. Perhaps being away from people you love to hang out with is an agony. Other reasons -- High level of stress since it was the first clinical year, hospital with stuffy atmosphere ( clerking history and doing physical examination were not fun at all when your hands are busy writing/examining the patient and had to make sure to wipe away the drops of sweat on your face before it runs down all the way from your forehead, to your cheek/nose and lastly to your patient's body!) Embarassing ok.
Love hanging out in UMMC ward because they are air-conditioned! Used to be told that UMMC patients may not be willing to be clerked by medical students and one may find learning process to be difficult if we keep having such not-so-willing-to-spend-time-for-medical-students patients. However what I have been experiencing so far is the exact opposite. Patients here are as kind as those in Klang. And the staff nurses here are 10000000x more polite and kind compared to those in Klang! Why so much difference someone tell me pls?! Klang hospital should be equipped with air-cond too may be haha.
Last day in Gynae Ward. Not joking gonna miss this ward because we are not coming back here again.Not until you're going for your housemanship. Listening to stories from patient, mostly are rather sad. Patients are the best tutors, this is true. They taught me a lot. And I sometimes ended my conversation with the patient by telling them I learnt a lot from them and it always plants a smile on their face. A contentment.
-Social-
I dislike people being emo, yes emo wth. It's not like I never show it, but come on, you don't get emo 2-3x each week do you?? Learnt from a friend telling how ridiculous someone could be. That someone got all stressed out because of people surrounding. people baca buku pun dia marah, people main pun dia marah. Bangs the things hard on table, whack the door etc etc. Ha ha, I find it rather funny how easy it is to alter your emotion. Why so fragile and why not learn to control your emotion?! That someone thinks people could tolerate her now, and in the future. Come on, you don't easily find people who could tolerate you elsewhere! Unless you're going to stay at the same place forever and not moving on with your life. Learn to grow up little girl. SICK
Ward round on Saturday (!) with Prof J. Hopefully we can stop giving her headache by offering best answers to all her questions. Lucks please thanks.
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